What....

sometimes life can be so confusing ......and just what in the world....It has been one of those weeks.
You know the kind of week where you making pro con list and where your trying to figure out answers on what is best ....But in reality God knows the answer and if we just stop what were doing for five minutes maybe we will hear his voice. Yea it has been one of those weeks.
I know where I am suppose to be in life and i know God has a crazy large plan for my life that is indescirable ....and I know he has me ona  fast track for a reasson becuase this is training ground......But I have had this sitting on the edge of my seat feeling all week ....and I dont know whats next , i dont even know what God has in plan becuase I am just here to enjoy the ride....
I have learned in 5 days my entire life can turn upside down if i let my emotions and frustration get the best of me instead of turning everything to God...It's a trust thing....But today i breathe in the very heart of God and I am reminded that He is for me in every aspect of life..When people do things that hurt my heart or things are done that i just don't understand I have to constantly remind myself that God loves me and he is for me , he is not against me , but he is there to protect , love, and take me through life....... He is My God , my provider, my p[eace, my joy , my sanity .....he is the lover of my soul and sometimes that truth is hard to take in ....but i am going to repeat it over and over again until i allow these truths of God to be permenant and deep on the string of my heart...It's a journey but I am in it and I refuse to quit , give in , let go , give up .....I will push , fight , pray , petition , scream, fall on my knees and climb this journey God has placed me on!

BIG

In the midst of having that sitting @ the edge of my chair feeling ....but not sure why....
Change is begining , change that i never expected , never thought would happen but it is.... The feeling of being comfortable is leaving as preperation is taking its place...
What do you do in these moments? Do you become scared and run or do you smile with excitement becuase you know in the deep spot of your heart the Lord is about to do something huge.
For so long i have been comfortable with everything around me , my calling , my destiny ...my dream ..And the Lord is requiring change. He is making me realize certain pieces of armour does not fit any longer and i can no longer tape it on , tie it on and pretend...... And in the places where i just got comfortable he is shaking becuase he wants more even when i thought i gave it all in that area....nope he stands back grins and says more....
I dont know whats next , i dont know where , when or how ...all i know is i am taking the first step and i am going to stand back and see what He does....becuase that is all i know at this moment...He is faithful always and I am his daughter and i know he is For me Always!