It's something about this time of the year that I love. Memories overtake my mind of the sweetness of this season...Thankfulness overflows from my heart when I stop and think of all this year has held for me. I have been thinking lately what was this season really for.
Years ago this baby was born ,Jesus, and He was born with the sole purpose of changing the world and dying for me and you. God sent His only son to the earth and at a young age he would die for His people.
How crazy is that ...I don't think I can ever fully grasp How God gave His only son to die.... the son He loved so deep...
Sometimes in life I can get caught up in the moments of family, friends, hopes, dreams, ministry, and just life and in return i forget how good and amazing God has been too me.
You know I am not this amazing person I'm just a girl who just simply loves because God loved me in a unconditional never ending way.
I have big dreams and big hopes in life but in this season I have learned and came into acceptance of if none of my dreams come true and none of my hopes and desires comes to place then I will be okay because I have experienced the great love of God and I continually experience this amazing love.
So this Christmas I am reminded of all God has done, and all He has placed in my life.
He sure has given me an amazing group of people that love me the way he loves me and they see me the way he See's me. For this I am so very thankful..... So this Christmas stop for a minute and just let God love you, just let God tell you how much he cares about you and How big of a plan He has for you...I know this is such a cliche thing for me to tell you do ...but sometimes little things like this can change your life for ever.
God is good and He will never stop loving!
I just want to change the world.......
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
Desperation
About 2 months ago I began seeing things in a different light.
You know sometimes how life is when we are just in a rush moment? So much to do , so little time to get it done. Well that has been my life for about oh 6 years now and in the past 2 it has just sped up a little faster.
The past 2 months though things have been different my heart has slowed down, while my mind has continued to race.
I was talking to a friend this past weekend and she reminded me of why do we have to do things like they have always been done and she proposed the question why stay with something if in a year from now you look back and see it in the same spot and in the process you never grew, moved or saw growth with the area?
Sometimes in life I choose to pick up people's "burdens"( thing's in their ministry/life they need someone to come along side of them and serve and or help in) because I Love people, and I love relationships..... I love deep heart connected relationships, and one reason I do this alot of the time (not all the time) is because i feel in my heart if i do this then i will in return become closer to them and be able to be a part of their life. But in reality a majority of the times this is not the case. This has happened a lot this past year with a few people in my life and has happened in the past with old friends.
I don't know why things come up when they do , or why God allows different things to come up in different seassons but He does.
Today I am seeing the truth in how he pick up things and i am seeing it in a different light therefor God is bringing it to the surface to change it. So I can make a change and be willing to allow him to change it too.
Thinking through the past year, this time last year / I am in the same place in a lot of ways... and my heart hurts when i think of that , because i never want to be in the same place year after year. Don't get me wrong i do see growth in a lot of areas...such as marriage desire, allowing people to see me , being honest and vulnerable with those in my life the close people in my life my heart friends. But when it comes to other areas i see little change and no big growth.....is this a bad thing i don't know because I'm not God, my perfectionist heart says yes..... for me sitting still in one place for a year and not growing and seeing growth is not okay, especially when in the process you allow the passion to die down that God gave you! ......
So what to do now?
Nothing? No, pray, seek god hard , Get desperate , push in, press in , get desperate, hungry, passionate,thirsty for God to speak, move, touch,push...Desperate to do anything and everything to just hear God, see his heart, feel his heart!
But the one questions thats in my mind at this moment is how desperate do i have to get before He moves, how long will i be in this state of desperation? a day, a week, a year? when will God jump in pour out and speak?
I'm desperate!
You know sometimes how life is when we are just in a rush moment? So much to do , so little time to get it done. Well that has been my life for about oh 6 years now and in the past 2 it has just sped up a little faster.
The past 2 months though things have been different my heart has slowed down, while my mind has continued to race.
I was talking to a friend this past weekend and she reminded me of why do we have to do things like they have always been done and she proposed the question why stay with something if in a year from now you look back and see it in the same spot and in the process you never grew, moved or saw growth with the area?
Sometimes in life I choose to pick up people's "burdens"( thing's in their ministry/life they need someone to come along side of them and serve and or help in) because I Love people, and I love relationships..... I love deep heart connected relationships, and one reason I do this alot of the time (not all the time) is because i feel in my heart if i do this then i will in return become closer to them and be able to be a part of their life. But in reality a majority of the times this is not the case. This has happened a lot this past year with a few people in my life and has happened in the past with old friends.
I don't know why things come up when they do , or why God allows different things to come up in different seassons but He does.
Today I am seeing the truth in how he pick up things and i am seeing it in a different light therefor God is bringing it to the surface to change it. So I can make a change and be willing to allow him to change it too.
Thinking through the past year, this time last year / I am in the same place in a lot of ways... and my heart hurts when i think of that , because i never want to be in the same place year after year. Don't get me wrong i do see growth in a lot of areas...such as marriage desire, allowing people to see me , being honest and vulnerable with those in my life the close people in my life my heart friends. But when it comes to other areas i see little change and no big growth.....is this a bad thing i don't know because I'm not God, my perfectionist heart says yes..... for me sitting still in one place for a year and not growing and seeing growth is not okay, especially when in the process you allow the passion to die down that God gave you! ......
So what to do now?
Nothing? No, pray, seek god hard , Get desperate , push in, press in , get desperate, hungry, passionate,thirsty for God to speak, move, touch,push...Desperate to do anything and everything to just hear God, see his heart, feel his heart!
But the one questions thats in my mind at this moment is how desperate do i have to get before He moves, how long will i be in this state of desperation? a day, a week, a year? when will God jump in pour out and speak?
I'm desperate!
Saturday, October 8, 2011
Beauty, love, church
Last weekend a dream in my heart came to reality. For about 5 years now I have had this deep desire and passion to see a conference take place where girls ages 13-26 learn the truth of what God thinks of them and replaces the lies with the truth. I wanted to see worldly definitions of beauty and true identity stripped from the lives of girls and in exchange God give them a brand new thought a God thought of who they are and how we are His daughters and He loves in a deep way! So One day girl happened...Throughout the entire day I saw girls really exchange the lies they have bit into for years and get truth of God in return and walk away feeling confident and ready to accomplish anything and everything. A desire came to reality....and it was amazing to be a part of that.
Over the past 6 months of planning for this even and even now I have had the love of God in forefront of my mind. When I think about the love of God, I am reminded of the relationships I have in my life. I am the type of person that is all about heart connected friends. Recently I was talking to a friend just about life and it didn't really surprise me but as we were both sharing about life we realized we had been going through some the same things. In those moments i step back and thank God for giving me a friend to do life with. To have a person in my life that not only is going through some of the same things but that will stand beside me and will encourage, love and pray for me and even challenge me because we have this relationship where we know when to push, stretch,pray and love. and we know when to just smile , listen, pray and how to bring it across.Relationships are important....They are what gets you through life and pushes you on!
To go back to life and insecurity and ahhh moments. Have you ever had those moments in life when you just looked in the mirror and have a moment of what the crap I can't do anything because my nose is too crooked, my teeth are ugly, my hips are too big no one will hear me because of how I look. Yep, I have had those moments many times. But you know what those times when you pick at your looks and your body that's not how low self-esteem, self-hatred, insecurity , and fear of man began. It all starts with your heart. Think back to when you were 5 or 6 or even in middle school and think of the first time you felt like you didn't matter, you were a nobody? What was spoken into your life, what magazine did you see? What movie did you watch? Word attach themselves to your heart and have the potential to kill you or bring life to you (Depending on the type of words they are). When you buy into a lie of I am nothing because my parents never paid attention to me , you can take that lie and then turn it into I am nothing because my parents never paid attention to me and so no one loves me because my parents opinion is the only opinion that matters and if they don't love me or give me attention then no one will so i will just keep quiet because my voice does not matter and I am a no one! This lie can deeper and deeper depending on how long it's been there and it's root goes deeper into your heart and in all honesty it had the ability to kill you!
Why do we allow these words and lies to sit in? because its a comfort sometimes we don't know how to really live without these lies because we have gotten so use to living in a tied up, bound up, beaten way of life.
Well in the middle of thinking this blog through this scripture came
21-24And friends, once that's taken care of and we're no longer accusing or condemning ourselves, we're bold and free before God! We're able to stretch our hands out and receive what we asked for because we're doing what he said, doing what pleases him. Again, this is God's command: to believe in his personally named Son, Jesus Christ. He told us to love each other, in line with the original command. As we keep his commands, we live deeply and surely in him, and he lives in us. And this is how we experience his deep and abiding presence in us: by the Spirit he gave us.
In this scripture it says lets practice real love, God loves his children deeply. He loves you and me deeply and when we practice real love not just with other people but with ourselves. If you can't truly love yourself then how can you 1. ever had this abiding deep peace 1 john is speaking of and 2. really have any real heart connected relationships in life? you can't...life is meant to be lived to the fullest and to be lived out with God's love.......
Take a chance and ........
His love is better then any lie you are believing,
Over the past 6 months of planning for this even and even now I have had the love of God in forefront of my mind. When I think about the love of God, I am reminded of the relationships I have in my life. I am the type of person that is all about heart connected friends. Recently I was talking to a friend just about life and it didn't really surprise me but as we were both sharing about life we realized we had been going through some the same things. In those moments i step back and thank God for giving me a friend to do life with. To have a person in my life that not only is going through some of the same things but that will stand beside me and will encourage, love and pray for me and even challenge me because we have this relationship where we know when to push, stretch,pray and love. and we know when to just smile , listen, pray and how to bring it across.Relationships are important....They are what gets you through life and pushes you on!
To go back to life and insecurity and ahhh moments. Have you ever had those moments in life when you just looked in the mirror and have a moment of what the crap I can't do anything because my nose is too crooked, my teeth are ugly, my hips are too big no one will hear me because of how I look. Yep, I have had those moments many times. But you know what those times when you pick at your looks and your body that's not how low self-esteem, self-hatred, insecurity , and fear of man began. It all starts with your heart. Think back to when you were 5 or 6 or even in middle school and think of the first time you felt like you didn't matter, you were a nobody? What was spoken into your life, what magazine did you see? What movie did you watch? Word attach themselves to your heart and have the potential to kill you or bring life to you (Depending on the type of words they are). When you buy into a lie of I am nothing because my parents never paid attention to me , you can take that lie and then turn it into I am nothing because my parents never paid attention to me and so no one loves me because my parents opinion is the only opinion that matters and if they don't love me or give me attention then no one will so i will just keep quiet because my voice does not matter and I am a no one! This lie can deeper and deeper depending on how long it's been there and it's root goes deeper into your heart and in all honesty it had the ability to kill you!
Why do we allow these words and lies to sit in? because its a comfort sometimes we don't know how to really live without these lies because we have gotten so use to living in a tied up, bound up, beaten way of life.
Well in the middle of thinking this blog through this scripture came
When We Practice Real Love
18-20My dear children, let's not just talk about love; let's practice real love. This is the only way we'll know we're living truly, living in God's reality. It's also the way to shut down debilitating self-criticism, even when there is something to it. For God is greater than our worried hearts and knows more about us than we do ourselves.21-24And friends, once that's taken care of and we're no longer accusing or condemning ourselves, we're bold and free before God! We're able to stretch our hands out and receive what we asked for because we're doing what he said, doing what pleases him. Again, this is God's command: to believe in his personally named Son, Jesus Christ. He told us to love each other, in line with the original command. As we keep his commands, we live deeply and surely in him, and he lives in us. And this is how we experience his deep and abiding presence in us: by the Spirit he gave us.
In this scripture it says lets practice real love, God loves his children deeply. He loves you and me deeply and when we practice real love not just with other people but with ourselves. If you can't truly love yourself then how can you 1. ever had this abiding deep peace 1 john is speaking of and 2. really have any real heart connected relationships in life? you can't...life is meant to be lived to the fullest and to be lived out with God's love.......
Take a chance and ........
His love is better then any lie you are believing,
Monday, September 12, 2011
Press play
Life sometimes is just brutal. So many know the feeling of when you walk into a store and nothing fits right or you sit there and scream at yourself becuase the past 4 months you have been trying to loose weight but in reality you have gained.
This blog is a journal moment. God has been challenging me and changing my perspective for the past 4 months and I have finally just agreed to the change instead of fighting the change.
I am always watching what i eat , trying to exercise and trying not to indulge in food and allow it to be the idenity of my life. or the focal point of exercising and completing being ocd about loosing weight. I know their are millions of women out their who are OCD and have that thought in their mind if only i could loose this weight i would be happy and i would be able to do the things God has called me to do. Yes thie is kind of true. Our body is a temple and we need to keep it healthy so if God calls us to a crazy country we are ready to go ....but happiness is not measured by your body... i know i will never be a size 0 but i have not allowed my size to define my happiness. My happiness is determined by God and what I do for him and just enjoying the life he has give me. This blog is crazy if there is anyone actually reading this know it was a moment to simply express myself. When the 1 day girl conference was introduced to me i began to re think alot and this was something that popped up and ya know i know it's not by chance i get to be a art of an amazing one day event that will change the heart and minds of so many young ladies and how they really see themselves and replace the lies with truths.
There is no point to this nor is there anyways to end this except to say my perspective has been changed and i am focusing on really getting healthy and finishing this healthy journey once and for all. yes my entire life i will continue this journey but i am ending this battle of weight and ready to just kind of see what God does through all of this!
Heres the newness and health
This blog is a journal moment. God has been challenging me and changing my perspective for the past 4 months and I have finally just agreed to the change instead of fighting the change.
I am always watching what i eat , trying to exercise and trying not to indulge in food and allow it to be the idenity of my life. or the focal point of exercising and completing being ocd about loosing weight. I know their are millions of women out their who are OCD and have that thought in their mind if only i could loose this weight i would be happy and i would be able to do the things God has called me to do. Yes thie is kind of true. Our body is a temple and we need to keep it healthy so if God calls us to a crazy country we are ready to go ....but happiness is not measured by your body... i know i will never be a size 0 but i have not allowed my size to define my happiness. My happiness is determined by God and what I do for him and just enjoying the life he has give me. This blog is crazy if there is anyone actually reading this know it was a moment to simply express myself. When the 1 day girl conference was introduced to me i began to re think alot and this was something that popped up and ya know i know it's not by chance i get to be a art of an amazing one day event that will change the heart and minds of so many young ladies and how they really see themselves and replace the lies with truths.
There is no point to this nor is there anyways to end this except to say my perspective has been changed and i am focusing on really getting healthy and finishing this healthy journey once and for all. yes my entire life i will continue this journey but i am ending this battle of weight and ready to just kind of see what God does through all of this!
Heres the newness and health
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
Gently stepping forward
Gently stepping forward.... My heart has been thinking for a while and aching. My hearts desire is to accomplish the call God has over my life and be completly opemed to Him and the people in my life.
For the past 2 years I have been on this journey of allowing God slowly into the deep corners of my heart the ones with a few cobwebs and even the ones i have became comfortable with and just lived life with. I am just now seeing a piece of the light...I am just now able to say okay God I'm ready , I'm tired of living life with these pieces of my heart not being fully touched by God. I've allowed him to speak and i have allowed him to see and touch the parts for a split second then i get scared and close up. It has taken me up until this point to be able to say ok God let's go , let's go on this journey, lets experience this moment, lets do it....I know it's not going to be easy i know there will be many times where i am going to want to throw in the towel and i know there will be moments when i will want to rush God in the picutre he is painting for me ....But i know allowing him to touch every piece of my heart and being opened and vunerable with Him is just the next stone I am suppose to step on....and after this I have no idea whats next but Im okay with that becuase he has the paint brush and the canvas and he is busy painting the picture of my life.
For the past 2 years I have been on this journey of allowing God slowly into the deep corners of my heart the ones with a few cobwebs and even the ones i have became comfortable with and just lived life with. I am just now seeing a piece of the light...I am just now able to say okay God I'm ready , I'm tired of living life with these pieces of my heart not being fully touched by God. I've allowed him to speak and i have allowed him to see and touch the parts for a split second then i get scared and close up. It has taken me up until this point to be able to say ok God let's go , let's go on this journey, lets experience this moment, lets do it....I know it's not going to be easy i know there will be many times where i am going to want to throw in the towel and i know there will be moments when i will want to rush God in the picutre he is painting for me ....But i know allowing him to touch every piece of my heart and being opened and vunerable with Him is just the next stone I am suppose to step on....and after this I have no idea whats next but Im okay with that becuase he has the paint brush and the canvas and he is busy painting the picture of my life.
Saturday, August 20, 2011
Start
Life has never came easy for me. I have never just been handed something or been offered a major position. I have never had life just handed too me instead i have worked and worked and worked....Is that bad no. So why am I writting this right now...I dont know, I just have a heart full and I wanted to type away so here I am.
For the past 2 months I have found myself praying harder then ever and in the processe learning alot from not only God but those around me.
God has placed people in my life for a reasson and over the past month I have become more vunerable and aware of what is around me . It's as if a veil has been torn away and I can see things from a different persepective and in the process of all of this God has opened doors I have never imagined. He has beyond blessed me this year with an increadible group of prek students that mesh well together, love to learn and have a heart for God plus place a lady in my life to join me along the prek journey and help teach. School is back in the picture and I am at a great school with a great falculty that is determined to see me graduate. And then there is a set of friends in my life that pray, encourage, love and push me. They challenge me to go forward, encourage me and give me wisdom when I am at the end of my ropes and they are what i call my Framily...More then friends but not blood so they are a part of me......God is increadible and he challenges me daily. And over the past 2 months He has made me see things like I never had before and I am finally at a place in life where I feel safe and where I am just in God's arms and I feel like I have reached a new step in my life ladder with God and in life...maybe this is what being 24 does but I know one thing I am blessed and excited about the future and to dream and see the dreams come into reality!
For the past 2 months I have found myself praying harder then ever and in the processe learning alot from not only God but those around me.
God has placed people in my life for a reasson and over the past month I have become more vunerable and aware of what is around me . It's as if a veil has been torn away and I can see things from a different persepective and in the process of all of this God has opened doors I have never imagined. He has beyond blessed me this year with an increadible group of prek students that mesh well together, love to learn and have a heart for God plus place a lady in my life to join me along the prek journey and help teach. School is back in the picture and I am at a great school with a great falculty that is determined to see me graduate. And then there is a set of friends in my life that pray, encourage, love and push me. They challenge me to go forward, encourage me and give me wisdom when I am at the end of my ropes and they are what i call my Framily...More then friends but not blood so they are a part of me......God is increadible and he challenges me daily. And over the past 2 months He has made me see things like I never had before and I am finally at a place in life where I feel safe and where I am just in God's arms and I feel like I have reached a new step in my life ladder with God and in life...maybe this is what being 24 does but I know one thing I am blessed and excited about the future and to dream and see the dreams come into reality!
Monday, August 1, 2011
Ahaaaah moments
Have you ever had one of those aha moments in life? The moment when something clicks or you get this all of the sudden revelation on something you have been praying about.
It doesn't have to be this huge profound truth, it could be as simple as someone saying one word and your perspective change on that word. These moments are pivotal in life. One aha moment can change your life forever, it not only can bring on a new perspective but when your perspective is changes, who knows this change could spark that breakthrough in your life you have been crying out to God for!
I recently had one of these moments in life. As I was preparing for a CityKids service I was talking to a pretty amazing 11 yr old, i handed her a pair of glasses and told her to put them on , she looked at me and said no crystal i look like a dork! Her father looked at her and said don't call my daughter a dork, she looked at him with a questioned look on her face. He looked at her again and said your my daughter, i'm telling you don't talk to my daughter that way don't call my daughter a dork, she' amazing and wonderful. At that moment that 11 yr old did not have the same revelation i had. I got this picture of God looking as us and in those moments when we do something wrong or mess up and in out minds we tell ourselves how dumb we are, or how we messed up and we shoot ourselves down, we think no one hears us nor knows what really is going on inside out minds. But God does, he hears everything that happens in our minds including these moments. And in this God is standing there saying Don't talk to my daughter that way. Your my Daughter and I am telling you as your father the one who made you, Don't talk to my daughter that way. You are amazing, talented, beautiful, creative, smart, called, and anointed.
When these moments come in you life take them and don't let them go. allow these moments to shape your life and change you and bring you one step closer to that breakthrough moment or brings on a new perspective in life to where you see things a little more clearly.
It doesn't have to be this huge profound truth, it could be as simple as someone saying one word and your perspective change on that word. These moments are pivotal in life. One aha moment can change your life forever, it not only can bring on a new perspective but when your perspective is changes, who knows this change could spark that breakthrough in your life you have been crying out to God for!
I recently had one of these moments in life. As I was preparing for a CityKids service I was talking to a pretty amazing 11 yr old, i handed her a pair of glasses and told her to put them on , she looked at me and said no crystal i look like a dork! Her father looked at her and said don't call my daughter a dork, she looked at him with a questioned look on her face. He looked at her again and said your my daughter, i'm telling you don't talk to my daughter that way don't call my daughter a dork, she' amazing and wonderful. At that moment that 11 yr old did not have the same revelation i had. I got this picture of God looking as us and in those moments when we do something wrong or mess up and in out minds we tell ourselves how dumb we are, or how we messed up and we shoot ourselves down, we think no one hears us nor knows what really is going on inside out minds. But God does, he hears everything that happens in our minds including these moments. And in this God is standing there saying Don't talk to my daughter that way. Your my Daughter and I am telling you as your father the one who made you, Don't talk to my daughter that way. You are amazing, talented, beautiful, creative, smart, called, and anointed.
When these moments come in you life take them and don't let them go. allow these moments to shape your life and change you and bring you one step closer to that breakthrough moment or brings on a new perspective in life to where you see things a little more clearly.
Friday, April 8, 2011
Seek...Knock...Find
Waiting ..the one word I dislike the most is wait. I absolutely hate waiting especially when it comes to something I can seek and or something I have been petitioning to God about. But what happens to me? God places me in this season of being content , holding steady , and just waiting....Can i trade this season in God?Please?
There is so much in my heart that I desire and want badly....and there are endless times in the past 5 months I have been sitting in my car screaming and crying out to God about the desires HE places in my heart. And now I have come to a complete perspective change.
God knows every dream and desire in my heart, because he placed them there. I have unraveled these dreams and desires and explored them and bit into them. And I have stirred my spirit up by them....But through all of this it has been a me thing. The way I see my dreams , my desires and my passions.
God sees them differently, I believe God sees them bigger then the way I see them...God is for me, He is for my dreams, my desires, my heart and to see me flourish in His love and His heart and to walk out every dream He has placed in front of me.
So what is the conclusion to all of this?
There have been moments in the past weeks I have been on the edge of my seat crying out to God to make something move...And it has not gone the way I conceived in my mind and my heart...But God has this....I have sought his face, knocked on the door and still am, and in conclusion i fount that God has the bigger picture then my bigger picture in mine and He is never going to let me down. So even though I have to wait now ....this waiting season doesn't mean my dream are gone and that they don't matter it just means right now I am meant to soak up God....and walk out what He has given me now......
There is so much in my heart that I desire and want badly....and there are endless times in the past 5 months I have been sitting in my car screaming and crying out to God about the desires HE places in my heart. And now I have come to a complete perspective change.
God knows every dream and desire in my heart, because he placed them there. I have unraveled these dreams and desires and explored them and bit into them. And I have stirred my spirit up by them....But through all of this it has been a me thing. The way I see my dreams , my desires and my passions.
God sees them differently, I believe God sees them bigger then the way I see them...God is for me, He is for my dreams, my desires, my heart and to see me flourish in His love and His heart and to walk out every dream He has placed in front of me.
So what is the conclusion to all of this?
There have been moments in the past weeks I have been on the edge of my seat crying out to God to make something move...And it has not gone the way I conceived in my mind and my heart...But God has this....I have sought his face, knocked on the door and still am, and in conclusion i fount that God has the bigger picture then my bigger picture in mine and He is never going to let me down. So even though I have to wait now ....this waiting season doesn't mean my dream are gone and that they don't matter it just means right now I am meant to soak up God....and walk out what He has given me now......
Monday, March 21, 2011
Who I am
God is alway's great in reminding me of who I am in Him. I am His daughter , the apple of His eye and He loves me. Now to be honest I know this of myself but when it comes to thinking I deserve nice things and i deserve encouragement and things in life this is where I have had trouble. When you are in ministry your goal is never about yourself it's always about the people always how can you impact others lives and make a difference...Becuase thats what God wants us to do love others, impact others and push others towards Him. But this does not mean we are to forget about who we are in God and since We are His children He loves to bless us and love us in a BIG way....God is pushing this in my life especially in oh the past weeks......being able to see things happen in my life which there is no explination for is simply amazing....yesterday i bough a car an amazing suzuki sx4 sport sedan. It is beautiful and the more i drive it and look at it the more i am reminded that my God loves me so much he brought this car along and allowed me to get it ...i know this sounds stupid to some but when God can do that and then confirm through friends in my life that i deserve things in life....good things not second hand not second best but the best...becuase i am a daughter and my father is Jesus.......He loves me and He will remind me every day and every second that I am His and He will take care of me and give me always the best in life.......So I guess trusting in Him and loving Him really does something ....Actually I know it does something .....God loves me and He loves everyone of His children and He will only send the best in all ocassions of life.....so i guess this is an encouraging word to say let God adore you and pour out his joy on you.....becuase His joy is amazing and His everlasting love is amazing....So to end this I say love on Jesus ,trust God, and smile...He has everything and He has your best interest in mind........
Thursday, March 10, 2011
Believe
Yesterday I was reading John 11 and John chapter 16. In chapter 11 it is the story of Lazarus being dead and raised......When I was reading this story which I have read and heard preached on 50,000 ways something new jumped out at me , in verse 15 it's the disciples responding to Jesus telling them about Lazarus being "asleep" There response is he will rest and wake up feeling fine, Jesus responds with he is dead , then comes our with Lazarus died, And I am glad for your sakes that I wasn't there, You're about to be given new grounds for believing, come let's go. WOW, now to go to chapter 16 verse 27 it says "Because you have gone out on a limb, committed yourselves to love and trust in me BELIEVING I came directly from the Father, the Father loves you directly.
Threes that word again believe. The definition of believe is: to accept something as true, genuine, or real <ideals we believe in>
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Hmm so when you say God I believe I believe you are going to change this generation, I believe you are going to heal my heart, I believe you will use me, I believe you will speak to me and I will go into the nations, I believe I am your child and you will never leave me and never forsake me, I believe that all things you have promised me will come to pass and you will use me!!! I believe you will capture every young person’s heart and you will use them to impact their families and schools and they will change the world!
Have you ever had someone tell you they believe in you? What does that do to your heart? For me it brings encouragement and pushes me forward because I know that someone believes in me and they believe I can do anything!!! It brings a smile to my face.....
I believe when we begin to believe that God can and will supply ALL our needs, that He can and will CHANGE THIS GENERATION, that He is amazing and he LOVES us UNCONDITIONALLY, That He will USE US, That He is a HEALING GOD and a LOVING GOD ......
when we begin to believe really believe and trust and have faith in God it brings a smile to His face..... And it changes our perspective on things in life and life in general.
God is amazing and just like with the disciples and Lazarus when He died Jesus said" i am glad for your sakes that I wasn't there, you’re about to be given new grounds for believing, come let's go." Becuase he wanted them to believe and have faith at that moment so they could be stretched ,pushed, encouraged and in the moment they believed God gave them new ground...He opened new doors.....
It's time to really believe .........have faith & trust like never before you never know what "new ground, new door,new path" God will open and take you through.
It's time to believe
Friday, January 7, 2011
What....
sometimes life can be so confusing ......and just what in the world....It has been one of those weeks.
You know the kind of week where you making pro con list and where your trying to figure out answers on what is best ....But in reality God knows the answer and if we just stop what were doing for five minutes maybe we will hear his voice. Yea it has been one of those weeks.
I know where I am suppose to be in life and i know God has a crazy large plan for my life that is indescirable ....and I know he has me ona fast track for a reasson becuase this is training ground......But I have had this sitting on the edge of my seat feeling all week ....and I dont know whats next , i dont even know what God has in plan becuase I am just here to enjoy the ride....
I have learned in 5 days my entire life can turn upside down if i let my emotions and frustration get the best of me instead of turning everything to God...It's a trust thing....But today i breathe in the very heart of God and I am reminded that He is for me in every aspect of life..When people do things that hurt my heart or things are done that i just don't understand I have to constantly remind myself that God loves me and he is for me , he is not against me , but he is there to protect , love, and take me through life....... He is My God , my provider, my p[eace, my joy , my sanity .....he is the lover of my soul and sometimes that truth is hard to take in ....but i am going to repeat it over and over again until i allow these truths of God to be permenant and deep on the string of my heart...It's a journey but I am in it and I refuse to quit , give in , let go , give up .....I will push , fight , pray , petition , scream, fall on my knees and climb this journey God has placed me on!
You know the kind of week where you making pro con list and where your trying to figure out answers on what is best ....But in reality God knows the answer and if we just stop what were doing for five minutes maybe we will hear his voice. Yea it has been one of those weeks.
I know where I am suppose to be in life and i know God has a crazy large plan for my life that is indescirable ....and I know he has me ona fast track for a reasson becuase this is training ground......But I have had this sitting on the edge of my seat feeling all week ....and I dont know whats next , i dont even know what God has in plan becuase I am just here to enjoy the ride....
I have learned in 5 days my entire life can turn upside down if i let my emotions and frustration get the best of me instead of turning everything to God...It's a trust thing....But today i breathe in the very heart of God and I am reminded that He is for me in every aspect of life..When people do things that hurt my heart or things are done that i just don't understand I have to constantly remind myself that God loves me and he is for me , he is not against me , but he is there to protect , love, and take me through life....... He is My God , my provider, my p[eace, my joy , my sanity .....he is the lover of my soul and sometimes that truth is hard to take in ....but i am going to repeat it over and over again until i allow these truths of God to be permenant and deep on the string of my heart...It's a journey but I am in it and I refuse to quit , give in , let go , give up .....I will push , fight , pray , petition , scream, fall on my knees and climb this journey God has placed me on!
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
BIG
In the midst of having that sitting @ the edge of my chair feeling ....but not sure why....
Change is begining , change that i never expected , never thought would happen but it is.... The feeling of being comfortable is leaving as preperation is taking its place...
What do you do in these moments? Do you become scared and run or do you smile with excitement becuase you know in the deep spot of your heart the Lord is about to do something huge.
For so long i have been comfortable with everything around me , my calling , my destiny ...my dream ..And the Lord is requiring change. He is making me realize certain pieces of armour does not fit any longer and i can no longer tape it on , tie it on and pretend...... And in the places where i just got comfortable he is shaking becuase he wants more even when i thought i gave it all in that area....nope he stands back grins and says more....
I dont know whats next , i dont know where , when or how ...all i know is i am taking the first step and i am going to stand back and see what He does....becuase that is all i know at this moment...He is faithful always and I am his daughter and i know he is For me Always!
Change is begining , change that i never expected , never thought would happen but it is.... The feeling of being comfortable is leaving as preperation is taking its place...
What do you do in these moments? Do you become scared and run or do you smile with excitement becuase you know in the deep spot of your heart the Lord is about to do something huge.
For so long i have been comfortable with everything around me , my calling , my destiny ...my dream ..And the Lord is requiring change. He is making me realize certain pieces of armour does not fit any longer and i can no longer tape it on , tie it on and pretend...... And in the places where i just got comfortable he is shaking becuase he wants more even when i thought i gave it all in that area....nope he stands back grins and says more....
I dont know whats next , i dont know where , when or how ...all i know is i am taking the first step and i am going to stand back and see what He does....becuase that is all i know at this moment...He is faithful always and I am his daughter and i know he is For me Always!
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